Writing helps me think and process. While we were in the Japanese hospital, St. Luke's in Tokyo, I wrote this while waiting to get the bone marrow procedure and test.
November 12th-
Well, I guess we'll have done this twice now. Wow.
November 12th-
Well, I guess we'll have done this twice now. Wow.
When you walk into a room with 4 doctors that is never good. That's what I just did. There are some things that transcend the language barrier huh?! Lots of doctors in a room after a longer-than-normal wait time is one of those things.
I will remember this day for the rest of my life, just like the time that Dr. Samuelson told me the first time that Abby had Cancer. I remember that vividly too. I'll remember this in the same way. I will remember walking out to the little garden area, calling Tiffany and telling her that, “we need to talk.” But this time it is in Japan, on my Japanese phone, I took a crowded rush hour train here not a car. How will we do this cancer thing here? Oh, how your life can change with 1 train ride. Yet, at least this time I know the potential road ahead. Blood cell counts are abnormal, but you shouldn’t have 12.5 % Blast cells in your blood, you should have 0. 12.5- I will now have another number burned into my brain. Last time it was 70,000 total white count, this time it’s 12.5. -oh how numbers can have such significance.
I will remember this day for the rest of my life, just like the time that Dr. Samuelson told me the first time that Abby had Cancer. I remember that vividly too. I'll remember this in the same way. I will remember walking out to the little garden area, calling Tiffany and telling her that, “we need to talk.” But this time it is in Japan, on my Japanese phone, I took a crowded rush hour train here not a car. How will we do this cancer thing here? Oh, how your life can change with 1 train ride. Yet, at least this time I know the potential road ahead. Blood cell counts are abnormal, but you shouldn’t have 12.5 % Blast cells in your blood, you should have 0. 12.5- I will now have another number burned into my brain. Last time it was 70,000 total white count, this time it’s 12.5. -oh how numbers can have such significance.
But 50%. It could just be a scare. I used to have the mug that said, “reaching for 50%”, I wish I had that now. It would be good to carry around.
That's all I got to write that day. The rest is a blur. Leukemia in Japan. The taxi ride home was worth the full cost. We sat in the quiet and I thought about how my life was once again going to change. I don't know what Abby thought about she is often pretty quiet. She is a strong kiddo but I don't want her to have to be so strong
That's all I got to write that day. The rest is a blur. Leukemia in Japan. The taxi ride home was worth the full cost. We sat in the quiet and I thought about how my life was once again going to change. I don't know what Abby thought about she is often pretty quiet. She is a strong kiddo but I don't want her to have to be so strong
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