Thanks for all the prayers for Abby this hospital round. She did well. The nausea seems to be the biggest challenge right now. Next week she gets 4-5 hour daily infusions in the clinic with chemo she hasn't yet had. There are two different ones and they both cause a lot of nausea. We are also starting a more full-time homeschool schedule next week with Anna and Lily. We'll see how this all goes!
As the new year begins, I am feeling a lot of things. The obvious things like confusion and sadness are there. I am also trying to release a lot of the things I can't make sense of, like most of what we are going through right now. There are so many questions, so many unknowns and possible scenarios that I can easily get dragged down to anger, despair, hopelessness. But I get up each morning and I do the next thing and amazingly, God meets me there with a thought, a bible verse that is profound, a word from someone who cares, or some small but big gift like snow crystals on our kitchen window that remind me that the God who created crystalization is with us through this and his love is steady, his plan is good, even when I can't see how.