All I Can Say

Well, that Dave Crowder song came on as I was standing in my living room, looking at Anna eating her peanut butter toast with Abby's fleece jesters hat on and her pjs, whiggling around in her chair like she does. I had just done the second meet at the door and switch off with Mark for the day as he now took Abby to PVH to have blood taken to see if we need to go to Denver tomorrow for chemo since her blood isn't tip top yet. I thought, ya know, I'm so glad God takes us as we are. The song says, "Lord I'm tired, so tired of working, and Lord I'm so alone. Lord the darkness is creeping in, creeping up to swallow me. I think I'll stop here and rest awhile. This is all that I can say right now, and this is all that I can give." And with God, that's enough. In fact, I'm learning that for God, that's what He most wants. Our realness, for us to just give him what's really there, even if it's not very spiritual. I'm so thankful for that. I am hanging in there. That seems to be what I say to everyone when they ask me how I'm doing. I am hanging by a thread sometimes, but God has me in His hand. Thank you all for your continued love, it is a great comfort to my hurting heart. It is great to see my little girls smile and laugh again. She is teaching me so much.