You know, on these weeks when Abby is some what of a grumpy, sad, and tired little girl on Decadron it would be easy to get bogged down with life. And to a point we do, especially after that first day when you get a bit side-swiped by her demeanor on Decadron. It is pretty hard to watch your child wake up one morning and be a completely different little girl. Constantly attached to her middle fingers and her blankie she walks around the house for most of the day wanting to be held. Oh well, that's just how it is.
Now, I was a bit down about all of this last night as was Tiffany but this morning.... well let me tell you.
I was driving in early to work, a bit sad about the life that my little girl gets to live for the next year plus and reflecting on the past when I turned East toward Greeley and saw the most beautiful sunrise! The whole sky was lit up with pinks and oranges, unique cloud shapes as far as I could see all lit up. I go so distracted at times that I started to forget that I was operating a motor vehicle. Not good. Anyway, a flood of thankfulness for the beauty in life came over me this morning and I just wanted to share it with you.
So Abby's not feeling good. So I have a bad day. So you have a bad day... or week... Still there's beauty in this world. Sometimes it is right there on the surface and everything is rose colored in life. Sometimes it is buried a little and only an amazing sunrise will bring it back out to the surface.
Today the sunrise brought, along with it's beauty, a deep sense of thankfulness. Abby's alive. I have great friends. I have a great family. I have all of you that read these often misspelled reflections and updates on our life with this beautiful little girl that is surviving a bout with cancer. I have the sight to see, and the ears to hear, all of the beautiful things of this world.
So, thank you for all the you have done in the life of our family. If it was as big as donating money for medical expenses or helping us with the move into our house, or even if you only experience with us is from reading this blog... I want to say "THANK YOU".
Thank you for the encouragement that you give us. Even if you don't post a comment on this blog, I know that hundreds of you visit this page each week to see how Abby is doing. To see how you can be praying for us. And just to post encouragements to our family.
So thank you; and I hope that this post can be a little bit of a sunrise in your life today too.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Abby had her Endoscopy this morning and things looked good. No ulcers, no big infections or anything else alarming. They did do some biopsys of each area to run some more test on so maybe that will show something.
Dr. Lee gave us the results of the lab test from last week and the ultra sound results. Basically everything looks normal there too. This could have all been caused by some sort of virus that just took a long time to get out of her system since she is immuno supressed or it could be something else all together.
In some ways it is nice that it is nothing major so far but also it is a little disconcerting to see your child so tired and uncomfortable so often. Hopefully this isn't what the rest of the chemo treatment will be like.
Tonight she starts Decodron (i.e. Grumpy/Hungry Pill) again tonight. Hopefully she does better than she did last month with it. I probably should take a nap while I have the chance... Pray that she does well.