Thursday, March 10, 2016

It feels like ruins

I have been thinking a lot about ruins lately.  I read a blog post on finding God in the ruins of life.  I read an article about Kay Warren commenting on her son's suicide and a sermon she had heard called "Glorious Ruins" by the pastor of Hillsong in Australia.  I listened to the sermon.  

As I sit here with Abby, who is sleeping now after a hard day of throwing up and being exhausted from a 36 hour chemo infusion, I keep thinking of la Jolla beach and the hours I walked with her as a new baby in the baby bjorn while Mark worked his network job and I learned what it means to be a mom.  All those hopes and dreams for Abby's life were just beginning.  And now here we sit.  It feels like it's all in ruins.  

God has a lot to say about ruins in the bible.  He's into them.  He is a God of hope and redemption.  I plan to dig deeper into those stories and see what God might teach me about himself.  I wanted to share a song with you written by the guy who wrote the book "Finding God in the Ruins".  I haven't read it yet, it just came out.  I plan to.  He and his sister, who has cancer, sang it with their mom.  It really touched my heart, met me in my pain.  Maybe it will encourage you too.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-ZQZQ3C1Ic

5 comments:

Unknown said...

Tiff, yours and Mark's posts often bring me to tears and some even make me smile. This one and the song really touched me in a tender place. I am praying for Abby and your family and all who surround her on this journey. I am also praying for my brother-in-law, Russ and my good friend, Debbi. Both are battling cancer. So Abby, Russ and Debbi are in my constant prayers. I love you guys...keep leaning into Jesus and thank you for sharing this journey.

Debi Yoshi said...

Tiffany, what a beautiful and honest post. After reading your blog and listening to the song I ordered a few copies of "Finding God in Ruins" for some friends and myself.

I love the word "redemption" that you use because I have most definitely experienced how God does take our hurts and pains and redeems them in ways we could not ever have imagined. I know He has this planned for you and your family too.

I was listening to a new CD from Hillsong Young and Free and there is a song called "Trust." I immediately thought of Abby. The chorus is:

I know that You are for me
When everything's against me
I put all my hope in You
Jesus I will trust You
I will trust you
I know you never fail
I will trust you
Jesus I will
Jesus I will

Here's a link if you'd like to listen to it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZRS2HThxO-k

Praying in faith to our good Father.

Tiffany said...

Thanks Debi for the encouragement. I listened to the song sitting with Abby in the hospital this AM. Trust is a big fight these days so the song was very timely.

Claudia said...

Hi Tiff, I was the "unknown" that left a previous quote. Don't know why it did that. Love you, Claudia

Rebecca Evans said...

Wow. What a beautiful, heartbreaking and powerful post and song. Praying. And now will specifically be praying along this theme as well. Love to y'all.